Could you tell me a time you felt content?

Recently I had a painful breakup and it broke me from the inside. I lost myself. I lost my self confidence, my self worth. A few times I thought about giving up. The emotional pain was so intense that it felt physical. I had my friends and family but I could trust nobody. I just wanted to keep it all inside because I was afraid of judgments. Thankfully I had myself. I turned to myself for help.

I love to talk to myself like I talk to my best friend that I love very much, that I would always protect and look after. Here’s a message to myself when I feel down.

“Novia, you have been so brave, so strong, and so dedicated to improving your own life. You have to acknowledge that you passed all those times that you found so hard to deal with in the past. You got through them all. That made you resilient. That made you capable. I know so well that it is difficult to get through this breakup. But you have to believe in yourself that you CAN do it, that you have the power to get through this, like any other times. I am aware that there are moments you feel that you want to give up, that it is too much, but come back to this writing and remind yourself that you CAN do it. Even though at times you feel so alone, just know that I will ALWAYS be here for you. I have been through all those times with you. I have never left your side. So don’t you give up.

Go for your dream. Manifest the life that you want. Start visualising the life that you dream of. Soon. Soon it will come true. I know that. I believe in you. I love you. You are a beautiful, amazing, smart, strong, powerful, loving, kind, giving, understanding, humble, trustworthy, capable girl.”

 Every time I connect with myself, a huge weight is lifted off my chest. I feel light and relieved. Slowly I am getting back up. Slowly I am opening up to others. Now I am grateful for my breakup, for the pain. If not for the pain, I would not have realised my own strength. My pain inspired me to be the best version of myself, to be compassionate, patient, and content.