Could you tell me a time you felt different?

I've been wondering for a long time if this is the life I want to lead. Being there for friends who can't give you what you give them or what you need. Being looked at by people and knowing even if they got to know me, they wouldn't know anything about me because they don't feel as deeply as I do. However, I have learned that every day you don't live the way you would like to, you learn. You learn new limits, you learn new things about yourself. I know that for all the good I give, eventually something will come back, and if not, I know that I was able to help other people. In sports, yoga and especially in the sea I feel like I can escape all the stress, all the worries and all the burdens I carry with me. For me nature is the balance I need, I go surfing and I am free, I lie down on the beach and look at the stars and I am free and I feel so many emotions that I don't talk because I am flooded with energy, free from short thoughts from my world.