Could you tell me a time you felt lonely?

My dad died when I was fourteen. It was sudden, it was quick and we should have probably seen it coming but mental health wasn’t such a big subject back then. Despite all my family round me it was really peculiar. Everyone rallied around to support us but I still felt very lonely, sheltered and yet by myself. It felt like my world had been rocked and I didn’t know what to do with myself anymore. My dad had disappeared and although everyone was around me it felt like my friends were gone. Life was just drastically changed. I didn’t speak to anyone for days and I remember the two weeks waiting for the funeral just passed by in the blink of an eye. I felt stuck in my room not knowing the right things to do or say. 

During the first weeks and months after my dad’s death It felt like I was in a daze, but after the shock I had to adjust to my new life and it started to become real. But, I never processed his death properly, I was so alone inside my head. I just wouldn’t tell anyone how I was really feeling and would hide it. It took me a few years to actually process what had happened and feel comfortable opening up and addressing my emotions. I found it useful to just talk, so I started just opening up and being an open book. If the topic ever came up I'd just meet it head on, be honest about everything with everyone. Obviously there's polite guides in conversation, but I felt like when I was being so open and honest about everything I felt it made it all much easier to process. The words weren't trapped inside my head, I could get them out and take a bit of the weight off. So I just stopped having secrets, the weight of them gets to you. Obviously, it is always going to be a bit of a sore spot for me. But, I can now talk openly about it without choking up which is progress.