Could you tell me a time you felt happy?

I am a woman full of emotion. I let them run wildly through me. Sometimes in control, often out of control.
Upon reflection of what it means to have emotion, I think of one in particular that is important to me.
Happiness. Being happy is important to me. I have spent such a large amount of time in my life searching for this emotion of happiness. What things can I do to make me happy. What can I change about myself to bring upon this emotion. More often than not, I would be left sad. Like many people I fell victim to the phrase ‘I will be happy when’. I would base my happiness in external factors, things I could set out to achieve. But I noticed a reoccurring pattern, when I reached that goal, did I ever really feel happy? No. Maybe for a short amount of time. But I was never truly happy within myself. I had to learn to dig a little deeper. Why was I always searching for this emotion of being happy? Why couldn’t I simply just be happy.

I started to realise, maybe it is as simple as just feeling and embodying the emotion. Maybe you can’t search for happiness. Happiness can never really be found. Searching for happiness means living in the future. When I started to become more present and actually live in the moment, the emotion of happiness naturally begun to take over my entire being. For happiness is a state of mind. Happiness is a choice. Instead of basing my happiness on external factors, I took my happiness inwards. I don’t need to do things, change things or get validation from others to feel this emotion. I simply just have feel it it in the here and now.

Being happy means letting go of control. Living in the moment. I am happy when I focus solely on myself and allow life to flow around me. I can’t control what goes on, but one thing I can control is how I feel. We are super blessed in this world with the freedom of choice. When you can choose to be happy, why would you want to choose to be anything else. I choose happiness because being happy is important to me.